Find a safe way to empty out your negative feelings.  The more you hold it in, the more you will stay in that dead end cycle. I put mines in a jar.

Its check in time. 

This tour is about being intentional. This week was a busy, hectic one. It was a week that made me look at my inner child and say that “hoe has to go.” If I'm going to be a different woman, I have to let my childhood trauma go. Don't ignore it, but face it head it on and bury it. 

Yes, things happened that were out of control but now that I have control, there's no excuse to keep living in misery. Its up to me to make me happy. It's up to me to change my circumstances so I can live the life I want. Honestly if i continue on the path im on id be a bitter old lady afraid to live. 

And that's not me. Thats not the woman i want to show off to the world. I desired to be a woman that smiled through it all. Even on my bad days i could find a reason to be grateful. Life was to precious not to. Everyday somebody didn't wake up and Im grateful for every i do.  

So yes, this week sucked, it left me exhausted and fed the hell up. I had another vision for my son prom that didnt happen. However, that didnt spoil my mood. My sons happiness is all that mattered. This is the 10th week of being celibate and my gotdamn imaginary balls are tight as hell, swollen, and sky blue. My past is haunting me and I don't know which way to go. This week is a little gloomy but I'm working on a better one for next week. See you Sunday hearts 

Disclaimer 

The celibate heart tour is my personal journey, but its one i hope helps other women. Alot of us suffer in silence because we think we are the only one's suffering. We get so buried in our problems that we become isolated. You are not by yourself; we all have something to get over. Dont let that stop you.